What is love? Love is a feeling, right?! And feelings do change , sometimes instantly, sometimes after ages. For example, you’re sad because of some reason, but after 5 fine minutes, you’re laughing for some other cause & after 2 days, the thing that made you sad had no impact on you. See, in a day, in a minute, our feelings and emotions can change at this fast rate.
Then loving a person, That so, for your whole life, Do you think, it’s possible!?? Noooooo sweetheart. Definitely, your feelings, your love will fluctuate like a flame of candle or the pendulum of a clock. Sometimes you’ll smile, sometimes you’ll argue. It’s absolutely ok yaaar…..
Your ex, jiske bina lagta tha, pagal ho jaunga, barbaad ho jaunga, life will become a mess, right!? Vahi aaj tumhe toxic lagti hai, See, you don’t even think about her, she never crosses your mind now, you don’t ever recall the past, the time spend together back then. The same person, the same environment, same level of conversations, even after spending more time, you loose the attachment your feelings, your love changed naaaa…… reason may be anything, but it did, right!!!?
Then, You told yourself, Ki nhi, ab to mujhe jindagi main kabhi kisise pyaar hoga he nhi, i can never love anyone like this, the way I did before!!! But……………… Years later, you will definitely fall for some other person, Who’ll make you feel butterflies in your stomach, whose name will make your eyes shine, who’ll make you feel understood, that you are not hard to be love, that you’re worth loving, that you’re amazing, you can do miracles & achieve all your aims.
Then suddenly, you’ll recall all those bad memories of your past lover & feel uncomfortable & doubtful, because of your bad experience of love. And boom….. You’ll be lost in thoughts, What if some misfortune took place, what if the same thing happened again, what if your heart got broken again!!? This time, you’ll be shattered & would never be able to recollect yourself. Then why to take such a risk, right!!? But sweetheart, just imagine, you’re walking hands-in-hand, laughing together, fighting like kids & celebrating your golden jubilee together. How beautiful that moment would be!!
So, babe, just give yourself & love, a chance. You never know, if you could meet a new updated version of yourself!! May be, God replaced that person from your life to present you with a better & amazing gift of true love!! That day, That particular day, All your insecurities & fear will vanish!!
So, Never Never in your life, feel bad about any of your feelings you had!!! Feel all your feelings, good or bad, happy or sad, logical or illogical. To feel even the worst feeling is worth, & to express them, is also really very important!! So that you never hold any grudges in your life!! We are humans, And human without feelings is dead!!
My grandparents are responsible if any misfortune occurs to me, my bro or my parents.
Yes, I am Pragya Khokhar & I am saying this in all my senses because after what all happened yesterday, I am afraid & not sure about our lives.
My grandparents always had a fight with my parents once a while as far as I remember, but Yesterday (7 June, 2021), they said “go to the railway line & die with them” thrice to my parents in front of me (18) & my younger brother (16). This was so heartbreaking that they didn’t even think about what impact would it have on our mental health. My mom in heat of the moment, couldn’t control her emotions, & she started to move out of the home holding me & my brother’s hand. It was too difficult to stop her but me & my father anyhow stopped her from doing so. I was trembling & shaking in terror, I was shocked by what just happened.
I have been going through such incidences since 12 or 13 years of age, that’s when I became mature & started understanding things. I told my mom, “mom, you’re bearing all this for 20 years (since the day she married & starting living in this home), now when the happiness is about to come i,e; myself being self-dependent; you’re losing courage; can’t you wait 3-4 more years!?” This was how I calm down my mom. But deep down, I was afraid & sad. I later cried in my room.
Mom had had made another such attempt one more time, i.e; half a year back. It was early morning, I hadn’t woken up since then. She locked herself in the room & was placing a rope onto the ceiling fan, my father told me this later. He called my mom, she didn’t respond, he saw all this from the window of that room, that opens on the road. But my father’s physique helped him broke the door. I was shocked to hear & see that the door’s handle was really broken, as I have seen this in the movies only since now. I didn’t dare to talk to mom for a day as I was not mentally prepared. But later, I asked in jolly casual way, as usual, & she said “yeah, anything could happen.” But when she saw my eyes became wide open, she said “I am kidding. Do you really think I am such a fool to let you deal with this fierce world alone.” At which, I showed my teeth in a smily cheese position but deep down, I was actually sad & terrifiedin the heart.
Since I started understanding things, I directly talked to my parents about everything & I am glad they clearly tell me each & everything no matter what. I always make them smile with my stupidity & strange kidsu acts. They became normal & childish so fast with me. But I am still tensed to leave them alone for even a few minutes, what if in wake of anger some misfortune took place, suicide attempt by parents or something worse by my grandparents!!? When I am there, I can handle every situation but what if something happened in my absence!? I am really scared & everytime they are away from my sight, I just pray God for their safety.
Amid, the Corona pandemic, my grandparents asked us to leave, we have nowhere to go. Everything is on my grandparent’s name, let it be home, farms or agricultural land; though my parents contributed with money but now they having no proof of it; obviously because there’s no mine & yours in a family but ours, they didn’t expect such things before. They don’t give us a single penny, themselves getting pension but spending from ours. It’s is easy for you to say, “leave them, stay somewhere else.” My parents being married early, couldn’t finish studies, just followed their parent’s instructions. My father had a private job before, later left & started an e-vehicle agency, having a profit of approx. Rs. 10,000-12,000 monthly which is equal to the school & tuition fees of my brother only. Hardly they gave my father the agricultural land they owe for farming. The money by selling whose produce then came into my grandfather’s back account because the farms are in his name. Of which, he gave us only a little amount of money. My parents did so much for them for long & this is the result they got. I have seen the time when my parents had just Rs. 20,000 left in their bank account. They have given such a huge amount of Rs. 3 Lac, 90 thousands & 75,000 etc. to our relatives in need, but now they refuse to give it back & keep delaying when we are need.
Mom-dad always says, “don’t worry, you focus on your studies, we’ll sell all our jewellery if needed but you just carry on your studies & do whatever you want to do in your life, we are always by your side & would support ever decision of yours. And don’t worry about our lives, see those who have moremiserable life than ours” Just smile & work hard.
I just want my parents to be happy forever & always pray to God, if I ever reborn give me them only, as my parents.
But I am afraid because I am preparing for UPSC, a govt job, in which you shouldn’t have any kind of criminal case. Yesterday, my grandma tried her best to arose me with her abusive words, to hit her so as if injured even a little, she can go & file a complaint against me but thanks to God that I have an extraordinary control over my anger & feelings & didn’t loose my senses. She said, “you’ll go to jail, you’ll be imprisoned” 5-6 times to me. Now, I am afraid bcoz’ she can even make false allegations & spoil my career. I can’t let it happen, because I am bearing all this torture just because I am determined to give my parents a happy life by myself becoming independent & leading a happy life I desired & I know I’ll definitely do this but for this I need me & my parents to be alive. Now, mom is really tensed about my career, coz’ that old lady, who is my so-called grandma, can do anything. Before, she alongwith his husband kept torturing my parents & now my mom is worried as it has come to me now.
It’s too difficult for me to study in such an environment. Those voices of fights & screams use to disturb & distract me. I am having a severe headache for at least 2-3 days after every fight in the house. So, I started studying at night in a peaceful environment & slept in the morning. In starting all was going well but sooner I confronted sleeping issues. It took me a week’s time to understand that I was suffering from insomnia & have had a little sleep of about only 3-4 hours a day for more than 3 months. Because of lack of sleep, my head aches & my eyes pain. I really can’t even imagine what my parents have gone through every now & then in our growing up, without letting us know all this.
We are not asking them for money or something, we never did; we just want metal peace. Right now, I just don’t even want to see their faces, don’t wanna hear their names, I hate their presence. I can’t bear to be with them.
Before lockdown, at least some hours in college & coaching were tension free. But now, 24*7 in this environment for 2 years is just unimaginably terrific, I am suffocating.
This is just the 3% of what’s happening in my life.
Didn’t seems to be real, right!? Yeah, just because I never showed or never told anyone about my problems, not even my parents, doesn’t means that my life’s running smooth. I always have that smiling face which makes others smile as well. And I am not telling you all this now because I want any kind of sympathy or help or to show my greatness. Naah!!! I am proud on myself & literally don’t care about what the rest of the world think about me or my life. All what matters to me is what I & my parents think about me. No-one else’s opinion bothers me.
I actually wanted to do a live on Instagram about this. But mere thinking about it, my eyes got filled with tears & throat became dry; in no time I understood that in live, I would be just shedding tears & not speaking a single word. So I chose writing, coz’ I rarely speak up my heart but I am good at expressing my feelings through writing.
So, I posted it just as a proof, in case if something unwanted happens; coz’ they are so greedy that they can do anything to satisfy their desires.
I want to live my life to the fullest, I don’t know what happens next, at least I tried my best & would keep fighting until my last breathe. I can proudly say that I faced everything proudly & handled every situation calmly.
Took me 4 days to collect & connect the data. Hectic work it was!!🤯🥴🙍
Many of my personal thoughts are also involved in it!!😉
1)What is the purpose & significance to observe world suicide prevention day??
World Suicide Prevention Day is observed on 10th September to promote awareness and worldwide action to prevent deaths due to suicide across the world which is important among today’s generation.
On every World Suicide Prevention Day, events and activities occur to establish that suicide is not the solution to any problem in their lives.
It’s a developing problem, and the numbers will tell you a shocking story. According to the World Health Organization (WHO), every 40 seconds, someone takes their own life, which is about 800,000 people worldwide every year — although some estimates put that number closer to 1 million.
Suicide seems to be the leading cause of death for people aged between 15 and 29. There are as many as 40 attempted suicides for every suicide that results in death. Each one of us needs to talk to people and convey that suicide is not the ultimate solution to any problem, and there’s a lot to live for.
Associated authorities :-
International Association for Suicide Prevention (IASP) organizes World Suicide Prevention Day every year. It is co-sponsored by the World Health Organisation (WHO) and the World Federation for Mental Health (WFMH). It is observed since 2003 to provide worldwide commitment and action to prevent suicides.
2) What is the history of “World Suicide Prevention Day” ?
In 2014, the first WHO “World Suicide report” was released “Preventing Suicide: A Global Imperative”, which aimed at suicide prevention and making it a high priority on the global public health agenda.
In 1960, The International Association of Suicide Prevention was established by the late Professor Erwin Ringel and Dr. Norman Faberlow in Vienna. Currently, it consists of professionals and volunteers from 77 countries, and it is a that is concerned with suicide prevention.
3) What is the Theme for World Suicide Prevention Day 2020?
A different theme is established every year for World Suicide Prevention Day, and every theme aims in highlighting a particular aspect of suicide and how it can be forbidden. For example, in 2003, the theme was “Suicide Can Be Prevented!”, in 2012, the theme was “Suicide Prevention across the Globe: Strengthening Protective Factors and Instilling Hope”; and in 2016, the theme was “Connect, Communicate, Care.”
World Suicide Prevention Day 2019 theme was “Working Together To Prevent Suicide” to highlights the essential ingredient for effective global suicide prevention. The same theme is established for World Suicide Prevention Day 2020 too.
4) How to Observe World Suicide Prevention Day 2020 amid COVID-19?
By staying at home, you can talk about suicide prevention to people you know or even on your social media platform using #WorldSuicidePreventionDay.
You can also connect with people and stretch out your hand to someone who may need your help. It’s widely known that some behaviours indicate the possibility of suicide.
Talking about this issue is an essential first step in ridding society of the idea that mental health issues should remain hidden. On World Suicide Prevention Day, host or attend a panel discussion on how psychological problems intensify thoughts of suicide.
There are countless books, films, and events to get you in the right direction.
Knowledge is not only power — knowledge can save someone’s life.
Ways to help people having suicidal thoughts :-
1) You should develop trust 🤝 & then know about their feelings & try to know what they think!!🤔
2) Keep them safe!!🤫
3) Be there!!🤩
4) Consulting a professional is a better thing you can do for your friends or relatives!!💬👍
5) Finally, of the situation is still worsen, you can take medication!!
6) Stay connected!!🤳💬
Facts about Suicide :-
1 in 100,000 children aged between 10 and 14 dies by suicide every year
Lesbian, gay, and bisexual children are 3 times more likely than straight children to attempt suicide at some point in their lives.
Suicide rates among the elderly are highest for those who are divorced or widowed.
12.7 in 100,000 young adults aged between 20-24 die by suicide each year.
Females are more likely than males to have had suicidal thoughts.
Poisoning is the most common method of suicide in females.
There is one suicide for every estimated 25 suicide attempts.
Suicide is the 10th leading cause of death in the US for all ages.
India has the largest suicide rates in South East Asia.😱
80% -90% of people that seek treatment for depression are treated successfully by therapy and/or medication.
In a study, 41% of transgender adults state they had attempted suicide. The same study found that 61% of transgender people who were victims of physical assault had attempted suicide.
Suicide Prevention Quotes :-
“When you feel like giving up, just remember the reason why you held on for so long.”
“Suicide doesn’t end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better.”
Suicide is a punishment to your love ones!!🥺
“If you are looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.”👀👍
Are you so selfish to leave your family & friends in problems??🙄🤔🥺💔
“Place your hand over your heart, can you feel it? That is called purpose. You’re alive for a reason so don’t ever give up.”🤓
“Because if you kill yourself, you’re also going to kill the people who love you.”🥺💔
It is a wrong brief that suicide is the solution to personal problems!!🙅
If you have 1 reason to die, then remember those 1000 reasons to live!!🤩
If no-one loves you, don’t be sad 🥺 love yourself & watch others getting jealous of your happiness😎🔥 !!!
Everyone has to die some day or other😶 Then why not enjoy every small things!?? 🤓
Firstly, I would love to thank Shivi (shivictionary.wordpress.com)🤗 for nominating me for “Mystery Blogger Award”. I am extremely happy & grateful to her.😃 Thanks for your love & support.😍❤️
SHIVI’S QUESTIONS :-
1.Which country and place do you belong to? ✔️Mathura, India
2.Would you like to go invisible or read others’ minds? ✔️Reading others mind🧠 can sometimes hurt you by knowing what they think about you.👁️🗨️🥺 Being invisible is really cool,😃 I can go for long walks🚶🏼♀️🚶🏼♀️ without getting being disturbed & can eat as many ice-cream🍧 as I want.😍
3.Describe your blogs shortly? ✔️My blog is about highlighting social issues☺️ in form of poems, stories, articles✍️ & it’s an attempt to change their mindset & think differently.💆
4.What would you prefer-tea or coffee? ✔️Cold coffee🥤 with ice-cream🍨
5.Phobia for any object or situation that disturbs you very much? ✔️I proudly can say that I am very brave.😎 But the one thing I am afraid😱 of is, when I am standing on a height😣 where there’s no safety or support (the new ones under construction), I still-stand there😑 & can’t open my eyes.😵
My questions for my nominees are the same as Shivi.😉
For nominating me to SUNSHINE BLOGGER AWARD. ☀️✨ In comment section, I usually saw people nominating each other for these awards & was curious to know about it😃 & wanted someone to nominate me but it seemed impossible.☹️ But finally one good day, i.e., yesterday I saw the message of the nomination & a broad smile came to my face.😊 Thanks for your love & support.🤗
1. Thank the blogger who nominated you.
2. Answer the 11 questions asked to you.
3. List the rules and include the award logo(s).
4. Write a new list of questions for your nominees.
5. Nominate 11 bloggers.
VURIVI PAVANSAI’S QUESTIONS:
1. If you get a chance become a teacher, which subject would you choose? Why? ♂️ I would obviously go for English👩🏫 coz’ it’s my favourite subject cum language, since childhood & I always scored full in it.😝
2. What country are you from? ♂️ I feel proud to say that I am from “INDIA”.🇮🇳
3.Which is your favourite book?📘 ♂️ Well, I love to read books & novels.😍 And have read numerous that can’t even recall the names of many.😁 But my far-favourite novel is “MIDSUMMER NIGHT’S DREAM” by William Shakespeare.😘
4. What is your all time favorite movie and why?📺 ♂️New movies keep coming & my favourite movie list kept updating.😂 Right now, it is “heropanti” of Tiger Shroff. 😍
5. What is your dream destination? ♂️ Assam💖, that natural greenery, pure air & less crowd.
6. What is the nickname that you like to be called with? ♂️ One of my wish that’s never fulfilled. I always wanted to have a nickname like all my friends had but……..☹️ I want people to call me “pk”😂 coz’ it’s my name’s shorform which kids in my neighbour use to call me. 🤩
7. What will you do if you became the world’s richest man for one day? ♂️ I would donate all my money to Government & NGOs. 🧾💰 As I already know that I have that money for one day only💸 & that money was never mine & would never be🤑(i didn’t earn it, so don’t have the right to down on myself). Then why not donate it to help someone needy. 😏😉💖
8. What is the best way to pass time for you? ♂️Listening songs🎧🎶& noticing every movement in my garden & clouds in sky.🌬️☁️
9. What is the quality you like in your best friend? ♂️ Her “realism” & “straight forwardness”.😍 She is what she is!! She never do things according to other’s wishes or fake appreciate anyone.🔥
10. What is your goal as a blogger? ♂️ Less as a blogger, but more as a human, I want people to read our blogs & imbibe the good qualities or teachings in their lives.😃 I would be really happy if my writings could change even one person’s life or way of thinking.😉
11. What is your favorite food? ♂️ Ice-cream.🍧🤤💖 Love love love.😍
SUKANYA’S (me and my thoughts) QUESTIONS :-
1.Why did you start blogging ? ♂️ I loved to write articles, poems, stories & about social issues & everyone appreciated.📝✍️Few people suggested me about blogging.😗 So, I thought to try it & in this time of pandemic, I gave a new start to my writings. 😉
2.Who is your inspiration for blogging? ♂️My friend, Dhananjay Singh Rajput. I accidentally met him on Instagram💬 & got to know that he’s a entrepreneur & had good knowledge about online marketing & all🤳. When he got to know about my writing skills, he suggested me to try blogging & he even helped me a lot .🤩 So, he’s my motivation & inspiration in that.😉
3.What is something you hate but everyone else likes ? ♂️People pulling my cheeks so hard to drag them down to the earth.🤦🤷🥺😝😁💖
4.What is your all time happy memory? ♂️My school trip to Adventure Island, Delhi. 😍💖
5.Who is your favorite blogger ? (Mention your liked blogger’s site link) ♂️ Deeply Shreded.(bedvyang.wordpress.com ) His posts are so motivational & mind-changer.🔥🔥
6.When have you felt the most proud? ♂️Whenever my parents appreciates me.👨👩👧 It happens very often.😝
7.What do you hope never changes ? ♂️My trust on God😍 & hope for the best🤞, even in the gloomiest situations. 🙇♀️⛪🕌
8.If you would go back in time , what age would you be again ? ♂️ I want to go back to the age of 16, two years back.😉
9.What do you miss the most during this quarantine time ? ♂️My morning-evening walks🌄🌇🚶🏼♀️ & ice-cream.🍧🤤🥺
10.Which is one book that has had a great impact in your life ? ♂️I have read many books & novels. But there’s no such a book.📒 Instead, I get my motivation from my surroundings & the lives of others.😌
11.About your life in one sentence? ♂️Born not to die, but for a change. 😌😎🔥
FAIRY HACKS ( FAIRY WITCH) :-
1)What type of music makes you feel active? ♂️Rock & party music!!👩🎤💃🎸🎶 I feel enthusiastic😃🦸 & energetic🤸♀️ listening to them.
2) What is your worst vegetable?♂️Beans!!🍲 Ewww!!!🥵
3) Do you prefer a large/ a small group of friends? ♂️Well……… I am friendly😃 with everyone & they also behave like good friend with me😌. But I have only two real best friends👫 which means world to me👯💖 (excluding my mom-dad)🤫. Coz, my parents👨👩👧👦, they are my everything😉, my bestie🤞, my love💖, family🥰, motivation👏, inspiration👍, my world🗺️, my god🙇♀️, all in 1️⃣.
4)Your favourite sport? ♂️Badminton🏸🤓😍💖
5)What inspired you to blog? ♂️All those people who appreciated the poems📝, stories✍️, articles📰, motivational speeches👩🎤 written by me & advised me for blogging.🤳 Their appreciation👏👌 inspired me. 😃🤙 A huge & warm thanks to all of them.🤗💖🤞
6)Do you think not having a specific type of music that you listen to is weird?? ♂️Yes, It works obviously be weird🥴 and frustrating😤 too because I spent 3-4 hours⏳ listening to music🎧🎶 while working✍️, dancing💃, yoga🧘 & exercise🤸♀️.
7)Favorite fruit juice? ♂️Well, I love all of them🍎🍊🍉🍋. But the most favourite is Mango shake🥭🍹😋.
8)What is your opinion about relationship over the past two years?♂️In the recent years, I have seen many of my near & dears happy being in relationship👫👩❤️👨. But after sometime problems like trust issues🧐, time management😬, insecurity🤧, infatuation towards someone new🤤, declining scores💯📉, changing social life👨👩👦, fights with friends🤼🦹, family problems 🥵 etc. came amid their relationships👩❤️💋👨 (in every relationship I) & spoilt it🌩️💥💔. So far what I feel is that we should first focus of our personal lives😏, career👩💼🤵 & family👨👩👦👦. Personally I believe🤫 relationships to be a shit🤯 which affect your life negatively👎, even though a few cases are exception too🤞.
9)What is your greatest strength as a blogger? ♂️My greatest strength is people like you🤩 who accept my flaws🤯 and keep supporting me👍 and my work👏🏼. Thanks for your love🤗 and support & always be like that💖🤞.
10)Your favourite animal/pet? ♂️Dogs🐕, they are love💖. I too had a pet dog & he was my best friend🤞. We used to go on walks🚶🏼♀️🐩, play at home👧🐕. They understand you😌 & unlike humans, they never hurt💔 or betray you🥺. They’ll always love you, more than you love them😍.
11)If you were asked to take a break for a day from either phone or TV which one would you choose? ♂️I’ll definitely take a break from phone📱 as I am all the time on phone🤳, sometimes a necessity🌝 & others times as recreation🤭. So, I’ll take break from phone📵 & spend my time watching a comedy😂 or horror😱 film with family👨👩👧👦🖥️.
1. What is your date of birth?🎂
2. Whom do you love the most & why?😍
3. If you could fulfill your one dream, what would it be?🙆😴
4. What’s your favourite food?😋
5. What is your hobby?🤫
6. What do you do when you are all alone?🤭
7. What is your aim in life?🕵️
8. Who is your motivation?🤩
9. Which is the funniest moment of your life?😂
10. Why you started blogging?🤔
11. What are your thoughts regarding me & my blog? 😗
Not the one, who’s just a homo-sapien in the face of a human body.
There are numerous homo-sapiens in this world. 😳
But wait !!!
Are they really humans !!?
Well……. I think “no”. 🙅
Because according to me,
“A human is one having humanity; 😍
Not the one having bones, muscles & veins in his body”.😒
I will categorize you as a human, only when you have simplicity in your nature,😃 you understand the feelings of others & help others🤞 no matter even if you know that he would never get back the same from that person.😌
Well, we can’t decide to be good or bad.🙅 Even that, it doesn’t depends on our decision. For example, if you think that yes, i want to help others, i want to treat them well or something; you can’t imbibe it in your personality , habit or actions. Because, humanity is a feeling or quality that is pre-installed in our souls.
We should understand the feelings of others. Before hurting someone, we should think that how it works feel us when we would have been at their place.🤔 Then only, we can realize their pain.🥺